Tuesday, October 20, 2009 / 10:59 PM

currently listening to: Colourful -Yamapi

i know i should be studying right now,
but after watching that show , i was feeling nostalgic.
and to add to that. tomorrow's graduation day.
the third grad day that i've attended.
the last one was still fresh in mind. (it was only 4 years ago)
but still, maybe i was still young then, studying was the most important thing at school.
everyday after school, i would be returning home to watch tv or play games online.
otherwise, i would be attending cca practice, Choir , netball , librarian and what else...
didn't had a life.
i did cried , because other's did?
i'm easily influenced uh.

then proceeding on to secondary education.
i was still very pure then.
i dare to say that.
cause its true.
1e6, that was when i met up with yiping .
now come to think of those who were in the same class as me,
they seemed to be doing well too,
like from my present class , tingting, airil, chinwee, weizhi ,songteck ... (cant rmb all :X)
we were so young.

sec two was a fun year.
i went to 2achieve, didnt know anyone from there cause i was from the "bottom class.
so got to know jieling and xiaohui, then daphne from my cca (NPCC)
i'm sure i was a noisy person, very. always getting myself involved in activities. cca, class.
then everyday after school, we would hang out in shopping centres .
neoprints! i have a boxful of them.
then the ass smacking , cat fights, teases.
HAHA!
if i knew they would end, i would have choose to play harder. well;

then sec three.
because i never liked biology. so i took double pure , and remained in achieve. 3achieve.
at first i wasn't satisfied with the arrangement cause i wasn't in the same class as j and d.
but later on it was alright (some things i shouldn't say here; ask me)
then the oversea trip to china.
it was an unforgettable trip itself.
because it was the first time i felt so.
and i made a lot of new friends.
i became more daring to talk to people i never talked to for the past 3 years.
then after i've returned.
i thought everybody else had changed.
never did i realise it was actually me.
so fought and quarrel followed on .
the sister-ship between me and d tore apart too.
it was a regretful thing that i have never did. to make up asap.
so things worsened.
but through it,
i grew up .
i knew how to understand people better.
i should thank d for that. really.
but now, its all too late to regret isn't it?

what's even more hurtful was you who broke the promise you made.
i never wanted more than friends.

i'm still thankful to yiping who approached me. (and also yongjian)
thou it may mean nothing to you guys, but it was impactful.

after all that and that , i came to sec 4.
i became more quiet, more isolated.
until chinwee said that i've changed.
i was a noisy person and it was too weird for me to be so quiet.
and so i broke out of that shell that i tried hiding myself in.
for that, i made a lot more new friends.
it was also only recently that some doubts were cleared.
i'm pleased to learn that they were much more positive than i thought they were c:

as i was writing, many thoughts came to mind . it just made me so unwilling to graduate from the school . fark , it made me cry again.

i won't cry tomorrow. i swear.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009/ 10:59 PM

currently listening to: Colourful -Yamapi

i know i should be studying right now,
but after watching that show , i was feeling nostalgic.
and to add to that. tomorrow's graduation day.
the third grad day that i've attended.
the last one was still fresh in mind. (it was only 4 years ago)
but still, maybe i was still young then, studying was the most important thing at school.
everyday after school, i would be returning home to watch tv or play games online.
otherwise, i would be attending cca practice, Choir , netball , librarian and what else...
didn't had a life.
i did cried , because other's did?
i'm easily influenced uh.

then proceeding on to secondary education.
i was still very pure then.
i dare to say that.
cause its true.
1e6, that was when i met up with yiping .
now come to think of those who were in the same class as me,
they seemed to be doing well too,
like from my present class , tingting, airil, chinwee, weizhi ,songteck ... (cant rmb all :X)
we were so young.

sec two was a fun year.
i went to 2achieve, didnt know anyone from there cause i was from the "bottom class.
so got to know jieling and xiaohui, then daphne from my cca (NPCC)
i'm sure i was a noisy person, very. always getting myself involved in activities. cca, class.
then everyday after school, we would hang out in shopping centres .
neoprints! i have a boxful of them.
then the ass smacking , cat fights, teases.
HAHA!
if i knew they would end, i would have choose to play harder. well;

then sec three.
because i never liked biology. so i took double pure , and remained in achieve. 3achieve.
at first i wasn't satisfied with the arrangement cause i wasn't in the same class as j and d.
but later on it was alright (some things i shouldn't say here; ask me)
then the oversea trip to china.
it was an unforgettable trip itself.
because it was the first time i felt so.
and i made a lot of new friends.
i became more daring to talk to people i never talked to for the past 3 years.
then after i've returned.
i thought everybody else had changed.
never did i realise it was actually me.
so fought and quarrel followed on .
the sister-ship between me and d tore apart too.
it was a regretful thing that i have never did. to make up asap.
so things worsened.
but through it,
i grew up .
i knew how to understand people better.
i should thank d for that. really.
but now, its all too late to regret isn't it?

what's even more hurtful was you who broke the promise you made.
i never wanted more than friends.

i'm still thankful to yiping who approached me. (and also yongjian)
thou it may mean nothing to you guys, but it was impactful.

after all that and that , i came to sec 4.
i became more quiet, more isolated.
until chinwee said that i've changed.
i was a noisy person and it was too weird for me to be so quiet.
and so i broke out of that shell that i tried hiding myself in.
for that, i made a lot more new friends.
it was also only recently that some doubts were cleared.
i'm pleased to learn that they were much more positive than i thought they were c:

as i was writing, many thoughts came to mind . it just made me so unwilling to graduate from the school . fark , it made me cry again.

i won't cry tomorrow. i swear.